For years I was drawn into a cycle of emotional and nasty behaviour followed by loving nature. Things got worse and finally I got out a few months ago. Looking back, I am now trying to understand why I stayed for so long, burying my head in the sand and relishing on the good times. I was always frightened of what the future held, as I had previously been divorced and it’s not easy being on your own, trying to run a house, work, look after children. In the end, I knew in my heart although life would be difficult at least I could be independent and lead my life how I want too, mistakes and all. You are not alone by being drawn back into conversation, normal part of the cycle I can see now, as you feel anything to keep the peace.
This forum has at least shown me there is hope, only wish I had found it whilst in the abusive relationship, for that much needed knowledge you are not alone. It was only seeing media coverage, that made me realise it was so common.
Easier said than done but stay strong and look for a way forward for the future.
