Thank you. I am struggling to try and understand who I was in love with, and who said loved me, actually can’t have done. Yes I’m definitely grieving, it seems like other people have successful relationships and I think I knew deep down that my husband did not treat me how other people’s husbands treated their wives. And yes he would be so loving and then he would disappear for hours if I challenged him on his behaviour, so I was left trying not to rock the boat. I guess it is abuse tactics, but it’s still hard to believe. Sometimes I think he was just misguided, probably just protecting what’s left of myself 🙁
