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Thank you for your replies and sending strength. Always means so much to me.
I’m going to call my gp tomorrow because I’m now aware that I’m struggling.
Sending love to you all x

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That must be very hard for you, I’m sorry.

Thank you x

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Thank you.
I wish I could have zero contact but we have young children together.
It’s all just so difficult isn’t it… going to have some comforting food for dinner and an early night. Lots of self care and cuddles with my children tomorrow- he can do as he pleases x

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Thank you for your reply. Yes I’ve been getting all over the above the past week, I think I’m so anxious about tomorrow that’s all.
I’m sorry your ex did that to you. And yes it’s so easy to get sucked back in and feel sad.
I just remember “stand firm”.
Thank you so much xxxx

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Setting foundations ****

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Sorry to hear that you both had such an awful time…. I still haven’t spoken with him yet. But I will. Thank you again

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Thank you x

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Thank you x

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Thank you for all of your kind words… nearly (detail removed by Moderator) since I spoke to my husband and the only thing that’s changed is that he’s being painfully nice to me.
I had a close family death (detail removed by Moderator) so my head is all over the place… life is so short and I’m feeling lower now than I did before.
Need the grief to pass before I do anything.
Thank you again x

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Yes he has a diagnosis. I’ve been to all appointments hospitals etc with his for the past (detail removed by Moderator)… I know the difference between him being a moody bastard and his mental health but he definitely uses it.
I’ve just had enough. I love him, he’s been a part of my life for nearly two decades, two children together… but I can’t live with the moods and feeling nervous every time he raises his voice or has a drink etc
I have nothing more to give to help him and I’ve got to a point as why should I.
I told him (I’ve never told him before) that I’ve had meetings with police and professionals for being in an abusive relationship and I can’t live this way anymore. I’ve told him if he truly loves me and our children then he has to go and fix himself, to better himself as a man for us or that’s it. I want a trial separation to see how that works.
It’s so hard to give up on something or someone you’ve had for so long. But this is my life too and all I’ve ever done is help him, hold his hand, guide him… I can’t and won’t do it anymore.
I don’t feel anything brewing, he’s going through the being nice phase because of what I’ve said.
I’m just thinking whether what I’ve asked is feasible?!
Or am I being stupid

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Thank you for all of your replies. Im still in two minds as to whether his behaviours abusive or if he is an abusive person. Which I can see is annoying to an onlooker, to you poor ladies that have been where I am.
It’s hard for me to comprehend how he has acted in the past. He knows I’m broken and he is being extremely caring right now which is muddling my brain more.
Can they change? If it comes from them

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I’m going to call my go Monday and see if they can tweak my medication. I’m on (detail removed by Moderator) (only since I’ve been with my husband have I suffered anxiety) but I can feel myself slipping into that dark hole and I’m frightened.

Yes I can imagine so many seek attention from another. It’s whether I act on it or not and to be honest i have no idea what I’m doing in my life right now.
It could be the shake up I need or it could break me.

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I’m so trying.what I’m finding hard is to be peppy and a good mum. It’s killing me. I need a break- as I’m sure we all do!
I’m also finding myself warming to other men lately. Just anyone who shows kindness. I’ve never cheated on a relationship but I have urges to go and do it now. What is happening to me. Please say I’m not alone on that one x

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I’ll google that now. Thank you.
Over the past couple of days I’ve had a complete breakdown and now I’m very unwell physically and mentally.
Thank you again for your support and kind words x

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Thank you. That made me cry… I hope you are ok too x

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You’re all absolutely right, thank you for taking time to send those replies. It means a lot to me.

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Thank you for your reply. I’m so sorry to hear we have similar lives.
Last night I had a breakdown and basically told him everything. And I mean everything…. I told him it’s now on him to choose what he does with that information but I am in an abusive marriage and I’m beyond sad.
We Havnt really spoken today so for now I’m just watching but I will know sooner then later how my life will be.
But for now, I am just so very sad

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Thank you for your reply. I think I’m just filled with sadness at the realisation that it’s him as a person and that sadly, things aren’t going to change. I’m grieving for what could have been and for all that I hoped.
X

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I’ve rung over 4 days and can’t get an appointment. Bloody doctors where I am is ridiculous!
Thank you for thinking of me. Means a lot.
Husband is still being nice but I can see it’s taking its toll on him (I’m almost amused by this.)
Just goes to show doesn’t it

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