Thanks so much for taking the time to reply KIP! There’s nothing that I can think of that could be classed as new trauma, however I did move away from my friends and family for my husbands work, around (detail removed by Moderator) months ago, I’ve struggled to make any friends here and have been alone with my thoughts a lot so I wonder if that has played a part.
I’ve referred myself online for NHS counselling, so that’s a step in the right direction. I haven’t spoken to anyone about this, I initially told one person when it first happened but we’re no longer in touch.
Sometimes I think I’ve imagined it, because it was never really validated for me, if that makes sense. Although having said that I wouldn’t feel comfortable reporting him to the police, I stayed with him for another (detail removed by Moderator) months after he raped me and I look back myself and think why did I stay! So I don’t want to even think what the police would say about me. Thank you so much for the book recommendation, I will be buying it. I think even just talking about this now is helping slightly in a strange way. Xx
