Thank you both. Before I was diagnosed my psychiatrist recommended I see a neurologist which I did and they ruled out anything else and said it was probably the PTSD.
I have read that book (well most of it). It’s the reason I started yoga and joined a choir (which has also been cancelled due to the virus).
My friends don’t really know nor my family for various reasons. I don’t think they would believe that I can have such strong reactions from the relationship after all these years.
I understand the little wins. I’m so glad that you have these moments. I just don’t think I can find any and I’m just bringing down my boyfriend as well. It’s not fair for him to suffer too.