Aurora

[Aurora]

I’m blown away by your kind and wise words. Thank God for you all. Thank you so much for taking the time to support me even on Christmas Eve when I’m sure you have a million things to do. Even had a giggle at a comment which was unthinkable this morning. Lots I will re-read over and over and think about. Thank you SO much. Merry Christmas xxx

[Aurora]

SunshineRainflower I want to say a heartfelt thank you for your reply to my message. It’s taken a while to be able to log in again as, only minutes after taking the courage to submit my post, he exploded again. It always takes me by surprise – if he can’t find a reason he just makes one up.
We have a ‘granny flat’ and I managed to hide there for two days without him even noticing. Constantly receiving accusatory messages of course – which man am I with etc etc all ludicrous and unfounded.
While hidden away I did managed to find some kind of clarity but then after two days the old fears creep in – Where will I live? Where will the children go to school? How will I earn a living? Then the future looks utterly overwhelming and I find myself creeping back to him. Offering to make tea. Then I HATE myself. Feel so weak. How far does he need to go before I’m strong enough to find safety? The future seems so terrible and yet the present is terribly too! How on earth do women find the courage and strength to take permanent action??? Sending love to my fellow sisters x

[Aurora]

Jane thank you for posting this.
I’m in the same situation and after being exposed to yet another explosion I’m once again saying enough is enough. But where do you get the strength to leave when his explosions leave me so utterly drained and hardly able to think or move. And how do you reconcile the effect that leaving will have in the kids? I’d die for them, so surely I should be able to live with this abuse so they have financial security? What kind of mother would I be if I dragged them out of their home and school when I’ve got no income. Head is spinning.

[Author]

Posts