Hi the ducky..i’m new to the forum too…and am also feeling very low and wothless at the moment…but as far as relationships go i want you to know that there are better men out there that will treat you with the respect and love you deserve…i had 3 awful relationships and after the last one which i was married to i swore that i would never let anyone make me feel like that again…i was ready to tell them to go the second they set a foot wrong and still am with my current partner but as soon as i made that decision i met the nicest man ever and the love of my life he treats me like a princess even though i keep pushing him away…but what i’m trying to say is when you build up the strengh to leave which is a time that has to feel right for you…you will see things so much clearer an hopefully learn that no one has the right to treat you that way…i wish you all the best and if you want to chat feel free to message me…we can feel low together 🙂