Chunky munky

[Chunky munky]

Thankyou ,
I just feel like I’m going insane , my partner just constantly puts me down , calls me names horrible names , shouts at me or starts an argument then turns round and says he sick of me starting on him again ! I don’t know how to explain it , or if things are brought up in general conversation he’ll turn round and say that’s not what happened … I’m sure you imagine things when I know full well these things happened or were said to the the point he’ll shout and say so I’m a liar?? You accusing me of lying because if you are watch what happens ,to the point I’m questioning my own mind ! he’s never been violent but this has been getting more and more over the years to the point it’s blown up so much this last week that I told him to leave he refused , told me he’d smash my car up and ring social services on me , and he’s been awful everyday accusing me of being a bad mother lazy etc ,if I say no to intimate things I’m accused of having somebody else or not loving him to guilt trip me , there’s so much more aswell I’m just at such a loss I just don’t know what to do

[Chunky munky]

Ok ty very much I’m just so scared and upset that I’ve got myself in this situation again but the emotional side is different to previous as that was physical I feel like there’s no fight left in me I’m just so drained and feel a failure of a mum for ending up in another abusive situation but I didn’t see it coming it’s been little by little chipped away at my self esteem my sanity even my appearance is shocking compared to how I used to look just feel like don’t have the up and go to make an effort , I’m sorry for going on I just feel a prisoner in my own mind when I told him he’s abusive months ago he said that’s what the refuge drummed in my head to make all men look bad, I’m scared ss will take my kids for ending up with another abusive partner I feel like all I do is worry I have to think 3 steps ahead to not cause arguments pick my words I could go on all day but I won’t , sorry for my rambling and then for the advice

[Chunky munky]

Ok ty very much I’m just so scared and upset that I’ve got myself in this situation again but the emotional side is different to previous as that was physical I feel like there’s no fight left in me I’m just so drained and feel a failure of a mum for ending up in another abusive situation but I didn’t see it coming it’s been little by little chipped away at my self esteem my sanity even my appearance is shocking compared to how I used to look just feel like don’t have the up and go to make an effort , I’m sorry for going on I just feel a prisoner in my own mind when I told him he’s abusive months ago he said that’s what the refuge drummed in my head to make all men look bad, I’m scared ss will take my kids for ending up with another abusive partner I feel like all I do is worry I have to think 3 steps ahead to not cause arguments pick my words I could go on all day but I won’t , sorry for my rambling and then for the advice

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