Hi belle, I was in a similar situation to yourself, I didn’t know my ex partner was mentally abusing me until after I left him and my parents sat me down and got me thinking about it all, my ex made me believe that my own parents didn’t love me and he was the only one that did, it had a massive affect on me but being able to speak to family and my doctor has finally helped me start to understand it all, I know the feeling of missing them but just know you are a strong woman and you’ll get through all of this xx