Confusedcarol

[Confusedcarol]

Thank you, I was in a state when I posted the last post, I’m trying to organise things so I can take control of my own life and not have the fear I have around him, it’s not fear of physical it’s dear of the emotional abuse, only due to my own mental health. I thank you for reading and listening, even getting it out on here if I need to will help me try and build this bridge to a life of not fearing what I say, and being able to speak about how I feel as I am scared to do that in fear of arguments and the horrible mouth he uses and how it makes me feel. He admitted he does it to get to me and to get a reaction which I find not fair as then I’m in the wrong and I get all the blame if I react.
Does anyone else deal with this or have done?

Advice would be great xxx

[Confusedcarol]

Thank you so much. Yeah I’ve tried the national helpline it’s so hard to get through but can’t leave a message as it’s hard at home with the kids. My youngest has asd so it’s very demanding so time out is when I can. I’ve 3rd day of interview 2moro it is really difficult and I’m trying my best. I saw him up the road from my dads earlier as he is a delivery driver. First I’ve saw him he never saw me, I ran in to my dads house in such panic but didn’t want him to see me or me to face him it was too much. I’m an emotional wreck just now but I need to do this as I won’t wake in ten years time to realise I regret not doing it.
Thank you all I’ll keep posting as I can maybe it will help people fight and know others are feeling that way too and it’s normal.

I have local women’s aid and I’m gonna use sexual health rape services. I’ve contacted them and hoping I can get some counselling through this. But 2moro I’ll have my options on support with the liaison officer who has been assigned to me xxxx

[Confusedcarol]

I phoned woman’s aid but it was eating at me I went to the local police station and sat outside but eventually took the steps and gave a full statement. It was the hardest thing ever to do I was a right mess but it’s done now and I feel better for it. Just having someone not emotionally involved really helped and let me see the truth in what he did.
I was sexually abused as a child and he knew this. So I knew it had to come out as I saw what it did to Me in later life xx

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