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I’m going through this at the moment and I feel so confused 🙁

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Family left are a bit rocky I’ve pushed them so far away …. I find it hard to keep close to people I’m in my own lil bubble latley .. don’t know got to pop it … I’ve hopped along now feels luke suddenly I’m in this situation I find it so hard to process … part of me wants to have it out with him see if he change then part of me wants to run for the hills … then I think I’m naive to him I’m just so confused

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I can’t say nothing to work I have a position of responsibility in looking after others they the thought of police and I’m supposed to be in management but can’t even manage myself 🙁 you are so right in the things you just said your opening my eyes , I just feel a bit overwhelmed, how can this man do this but call it love telling me he do whatever it takes but can’t even be nice to me just says all negatives about his life I tried to get him help had him go to the drs twice for his anger but he won’t take the medication .. but my head says is medication really going to change this ? Even then saying stuff like that I feel my stomach turn because it’s like I’m saying my opinions which always end in a row

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My child is in total isolation with his dads parents because of my job and the covid crisis so he’s totally unaware of everything luckily , I just feel so trapped and alone my friends don’t even ask how I am no more they’re prob fed up of it all and I don’t see my family , I’m so used to being alone doing things myself my parents died by the time I was (detail removed by Moderator) my dad and (detail removed by Moderator) my mam do been used to doing it all myself I have no idea where to start I’m scared to cry incase I don’t stop I’m just in a blur and numb right now I just feel like I don’t know who I am

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Thank you I’m just so exhausted dreading round two later when he comes in from work I had it in my head I’d pack his van because he was having a lift to work today so he wouldn’t have a excuse to come back but he’s taking the keys and the house key is on them

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Thank you , il read up on it now , I don’t know who I am anymore or how I can get out I feel like I’m in a hole , the one time I had the courage to message her parents and say that I had enough and he’s treating to kill himself if I leave they said it’s between me and him , my friends feel a million miles away right now I pushed them away I know I have , but how do I get loose I have a child that is not his aswell I just want to get a bag and run but got no where to run to and I can’t make a fuss because I’m in a high position in my job I have bottled everything up I will look crazy

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