Hi,
I absolutely feel your worries. Your story is really similar to mine. Anyway its shocked how the abusers are the same.
Just an idea can you speak to your workplace, they can give you time off and you can meet with a local caseworker to make a plan for you.
I done this. I have met my caseworker during my working hours, and we’re trying to find a refuge for me.
Have you read the Healing from hidden abuse by Shannon Thomas? It’s a really good start to know better yourself and understand your feelings!
I wish you the best!