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God sounds like we dated the same guy !! Yes the full time I was away he was texting and the last text today in my view was to drop the conversation and texting which I have done. Crazy crazy crazy making HELL

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Hi healthy. Thank you again for your responds. All my old fears are back 10 fold. I am super sensitive and have been in tears several times today, just messed up again and it’s painful. He is being super mater of fact and that’s a further slap in the face. I havnt slept since yesterday am due to time change and flight time. I can’t figure out why he texted I’d it pure self gratification and at that I am furious, is it caring for me ?, it as you say pure mind games. Part of me wants to text and say how I feel ? Part of me just wants to block him, he actually gave me the plumbers no to call which I did and strange the plumber said are you still friends with M !! Strange question ? Xx how long have you been out of your relashonship?

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Thank you both for your replies.

I am just back from a 5 day break with my daughter and he text me on the morning of my departure, I was shaking. We were sitting in the departure lounge and through it came. You see I worried before I left that I should have text him, I didn’t due to a lot of things but mainly as I said he has moved on ! He text read he plucked the courage up and did the right thing for a change to tell me to take care, didn’t say he loved me but he couldn’t live with himself if anything happened to me and he hadn’t text me !!!! It’s 7 weeks tom since I have heard from him. I stupidly text back to say thank you !! He has been texting back and forward and I am in a mess again, my nerves are shattered. The content is general really but he is so glad he was brace enough to get intouch. Pleas help sort my head out, it’s so hard as I love this man and I miss the good times we did have. Thank you xx

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Hi there healthy and thank you from r your responds. I have been to hell and back, continplated jumping out a moving car at one point because my head was so messed up with his lies, demands and abuse. He abused his wife who now is sadly passed away. She ended up with MS due to the stress and abuse. His ex partner before me she has had so many breakdowns with his constant lies and his manipulation, I feel sorry for her she will never be free due to having a child to him thank the lord I do not. It takes so long for our brain to recover. I am sorry for what you have been through too it’s criminal that they get away with this. I have reported him to the police and even looked at Claire’s law but I didn’t go through with it. Well done for getting you back and thank you again x

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Hi thank you both thank you all for your support… The past few days its as if the light switch has gone on and I see him for what he really truly is, I didn’t before, I actually tried to help him and I felt sorry for him… but today and last night I just dont care about him at all, it’s a bit weird that some how I have eventually see him for who he is, I feel only sick that I allowed myself time after time to be sucked back in believing every lie, I truly believed him…. I pity him now.. I will never ever give him my time again ever… he actually had the barefaced cheek to say he would be there every year to come no matter what !!! What a complete pile of Bull-hit honestly I fear for his next new victim and I give it 2 months that’s his normal time scale, sick sick person through and through. Be strong to you all it’s the most difficult thing I’ve, you will ever experience in your my life time but the rewards are amazing it’s painful but that feeling of freedom wow , I you can do what ever, when ever you want. You are out of prison breath and feel that freedom… I will keep posting as I’m not that naive that tom is an other day and that something may hit me and down I will go but each time gets easier and it will fade in time, that is a definite positive thing for us all to look forward too. Xxxxx

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Thank you all so very much…. I still haven’t heard a thing from him and on reading your replys he has slapped me in the face well and truly… how many more times. Today I feel stronger and a bit more clearer so I’m taking all your advice and I’m going to block him again, I won’t nothing more to do with him, any contact I have continually leaves me broken and depressed… I drank too much over the weekend and was ill yesterday making it all 100 times worse in my head.. I was going to text him prior to blocking, but he is no longer worth even that. His wife died (detail removed by moderator) years ago and I know he abused her, and I think that had a heavy hand in her ultimately shutting down and then on to (detail removed by moderator) he is a real head meser and her parents don’t even go near or speak to him.. I deserve respect and love and I’m starting yet again to give it to myself,I fell in love with a monster a man who didn’t even exist! Ill keep posting and helping if I can on here, I’m trying hard as we all are and it is hard as our brain swings back and forth between reality and the pantomime they create, thank u agin and hugs to you xxxx

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