Freedom111

[Freedom111]

I’m going to try and get a gp appointment, I already have medication for anxiety and depression but since all of this is just feel I’m getting worse x

[Freedom111]

Thankyou. I just wish this wasn’t so hard, I feel like a zombie when at home, I can’t do anything. I don’t want to go out I’m noticing I’m shaking/trembling whilst out around people. I’m worried about being in certain places or area in case I see someone who knows him. I just want to hide away. I only have one person I can talk to about it all properly but I don’t want to keep bombarding her. I feel so alone and scared of how I’m feeling. And then there’s the guilt on top of it. X

[Freedom111]

I know I shouldn’t feel bad and I have no doubts that he’s hating me right now but I am struggling so much. I hate the thought of him being put away. He’s been remanded and I can’t even think about it it makes me feel sick I feel awful.

I’m so anxious, I feel really low I’m feeling shaky a lot and disassociated. I constantly feel like I’m in a day dream. I have talking therapy starting at some point but there’s a waiting list and it could take weeks. I don’t know how long I can wait as I just feel really crap. I’m so sad and want to cry all the time. I just don’t know what to do with myself. I have no energy or motivation. 🙁

[Freedom111]

Ok I will thankyou kip xx

[Freedom111]

Thankyou for your replies.
It’s such a mess, we’ve been together almost (detail removed by Moderator) but we split during the (detail removed by Moderator) and he was constantly calling being nasty and making threats. During this time I found out some information about him from the police and he was told to leave me alone. I was weak and let him back in though. It’s been so up and down all throughout, mostly due to my children’s dad sticking his nose in.
He can be very nasty in the things he says, I always believed he would never hurt me physically but now I think it is possible if it got that bad. In the end we did have a nice (detail removed by Moderator) together but the whole time I just didn’t feel right. I know I don’t want this anymore i just feel bad and upset.

I’m going (detail removed by Moderator) my children’s dad, he’s using my mental health against me and the fact that he knows my current partner has a colourful background and he has threatened him because of the way he’s treated me. So me keeping him around isn’t doing any good at all. If he’d of left me alone like I asked then I would still be getting on with it now.

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