Hello Controlled, questioning yourself is something most of us have done and continue to do but that’s generally because of the abuse itself. Try not to compare yourself to other people’s stories as you can invalidate what happened to you. Abusers can be quite clever about what they do to you to make you question was it really that bad. The absence of outright physical violence doesn’t mean you imagined what happened to you. There are types of physical violence that don’t leave marks on your body but leave lasting impressions in your mind.
Have you read Lundy Bancroft – Why does he do that? This book opened my eyes to what was going on in my situation and is often referred to on this forum.
