Hellothere

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Another thing is why do I feel guilty for leaving?

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I feel so daft, But I’m also angry. He’s acting all nice now and like everything is back to normal but it won’t be long until he flips again. I just want to text him we’re over but while I live under his roof I can’t.
I should of left when he’s threatened or been psychical but I brush it off as I’ve annoyed him or he’s just in a mood etc.

I think because I can count the times he’s hurt me psychically on one hand it isn’t that bad. And when things get better we get on well.

It sounds silly but I don’t know a life without him now. What if I miss him etc these are all the things holding me back at the moment

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ThAnks. Oh having things thrown at me has happened before to shut me up etc. I’ve looked into that book but know hell would be to play if he found it because how dare I say he’s abusing me etc. I phoned Samaritans yesterday just to speak and ended up crying for ages I think I just need to speak about it atm.

I feel a shell of a person I once was. But I feel pathetic being on here and part guilty/dirty etc because I know his reaction and I feel abit embarrassed if he was to find out.

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