ifiwasaspoon

[ifiwasaspoon]

Hi there,
I’m a few years out and have ptsd, I felt very numb for a long time afterwards I did exactly what my body told me to do I was kind to myself, I slept when I wanted I ate what I wanted I watched what I wanted on tv and I thought about all the things I wasn’t allowed to do, then when I had the energy I started to do those things I could never do, I visited friends I’d been cut off from i reconnected with family, I changed my hair, I started to be me again in time you’ll find a way to recover and it’s different for all of us it takes as long as it takes
Try and find time for yourself and love yourself because you are worth it!
Good luck in your recovery x

[ifiwasaspoon]

Thanks Lisa for the link I will Bear that in mind, I’ve been looking at the forum for a few weeks plucking up the courage to post it’s been a comfort and a strength reading some other posts on here realising your not alone and that actually the emotional rollercoaster your on is normal, im so glad to be away from my abuser I’m just taking a day at a time I never thought I’d have the strength to stand up to my abuser and get away but I did.

[ifiwasaspoon]

Thanks kip for your advice, I am trying to look after myself I’m tired so I am trying to rest when I can, I get annoyed with myself as i keep having dreams where I’m trapped, trying to get away then I wake up thinking you’ve taken enough off me without Having my dreams as well as stupid as that sounds, i haven’t tried any kind of therapy yet I am looking in to it but don’t know how I’d feel speaking about things I think it’s been my coping mechanism to blank things out, I’m glad your free of your abuser and I understand how you feel with your ptsd your so right for me it’s like dragging a weight around with me some days it’s lighter than others, I find myself remembering things that I had forgotten about by a noise or a smell, my anxiety kicks in Then I try and think about something nice and like you said now I will think this will pass..

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