Innisfree

[Innisfree]

Hi Huesera

Well done! Sounds like you’ve taken a really important step in protecting yourself and your kids’ future.

I remember feeling like I was incapable of doing basic tasks but that’s the trick, isn’t it? In reality there’s a JOY in hanging a picture (even if it’s wonky or ESPECIALLY if it’s wonky), or arriving home late, or booking the wrong train, or choosing food you don’t like because they are your mistakes and your lessons. What freedom. I still get a buzz from buying myself a coffee lol.

Take care and love x

[Innisfree]

Hi Blueberry

The fact you feel like you still miss him sometimes yet also are reacting to triggers is completely normal. Your body is working hard to protect you and keep you safe so try not to fight those reactions or criticise yourself for it, it’s important to acknowledge these feelings exist non judgmentally. I have just been introduced, by my Councillor, to something called EFT, there should be videos online showing you how to do this if you are interested. It’s like a kind of mental acupuncture undoing some of the knots in your mind without trying to ‘solve’ everything, which I’ve spent a lot of time trying to do, to make sense out of the mess. It helps me when anxiety and panic rise in my chest.
Love x

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