I really, really feel for you. I honestly could’ve written your statement myself. It’s an awful situation to be in.
Like the posters above me have said, these aren’t the actions of a loving partner. They destroy the love you feel for your partner too. I used to think his desire for me was love but now I realise it truly wasn’t. Even when you try and explain how you feel they don’t want to understand or they literally can’t.
Im in the process of leaving but lockdown has thrown a spanner in the works.
Keep strong, you deserve so, so much better. You have the right to say no and to not feel guilty for it xx