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Last week I thourght this would be an answer to all my fears and anxiety. Now this has happened there are mixed feelings. I do feel relief that I no longer have to look over my shoulder or worry about restaining orders ending and him coming after me or the children. But dispite all his wrong doings to a long list of people now he’s gone every one has conveniently forgotten and are making out its a tradgidy and that he was a wonderfull guy. its very upsetting and starting to really annoy me. All this doesn’t really feel like closure. Thank you for your words. I’m so sorry for your sadness. I hope one day your son will see the truth. And you have your peace x

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I have found out that my abuser has died! His life spiralled after I left and he was never able to climb out and it has killed him. I feel guilty that I don’t feel more sad and sad for my children then gratefull that they don’t have to ever deal with him now back to guilty again for feeling that way. I feel like I’m going nuts. His family are devistated and people ad saying what a wonderful guy he was and I’m sitting here thinking he was convicted of violent offences against a number of woman what guy do you meat and im back to feeling guilty again.

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Update* the police rang he has been arrested but he’s denying it was him saying his friend went on his profile and did it lol they said they may have to let him go while they do enquiries and even if he is charged its unlikely that it will come to much WHAT! staring to.wonder why I bothered the police officer said that he seems very scared about the prospect of goingback to jail but it seems unlikly well while writing this they ranf again they are keeping him in tonight while doing enquiries and will ring tomorrow and that I should get some rest lol nice one arrhhh they say ring them when the ex breaks the order I do and nothing seems to happen!

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It wasn’t on the phone it was through social media that he contacted me I block one profile only do him to make another. I can’t really tell my children the oldest is not in double ditgets ( so it doesn’t st removed by moderater) and my youngest with him is only just put of nappies they would not understand my youngest was only born when I got out and has no idea that my partner osnt her biological dad I just don’t understand after all this time its like he wants me to know that no matter what he’s still about and I can’t escape him i have spent a long time rebuilding our life’s and right it feels like it was for nothing

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