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Hi!

I have a few suggestions and tips from my experience 😀

I started looking into this myself a while ago, I’ve found this website called KindMind which is anonymous and claims to not give out any personally-identifying information (but it does track when you log in, etc., just not what you write in it). It doesn’t save the things you write to their servers, so in theory it should work well, as long as you get rid of any trails leading to it.

I’ve tried using my email, but I find that I have a hard time remembering the names that I set in the subject field, so if I wanted to delete all of them at once in case something happened, or just wanted to view it all at once, it would be hard to find everything, if that makes sense. **Another thing about emails is that they often allow you to search the body of text with the search bar, even if they are found under a vaguely named folder or subject. Say, for example, you wrote an entry with the word or phrase “feeling afraid” in the body text, it might pop up depending on your settings. But I suppose that this depends on how familiar with technology he is. I recommend switching your settings so that it only searches the subject bar if you use this method! 🙂

I hope you find something which suits your needs. 😀

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Take care

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Thanks for your reply, Twisted Sister! I’ll take what you said into consideration. That’s a good point, that he continues to do things that he knows will hurt and startle me. I’ll try to remember it.

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Hi Confusedyetclear,

I really appreciate your response to me. I realize now after some journaling and therapy that my childhood experiences with emotional abuse from my parents definitely made it so that it appears to be the norm. I’ve recently been reading The Body Keeps the Score and so far, really relate to the points about how traumatized people slip into the patterns of seeking out what is familiar. The thing is…I know how badly I am being treated, I know that I don’t want to live like this any longer. I can’t take it, but I do, and it stresses me out even more. The thing is I don’t know what the next step forward is. I mean, I do…separation. But I’m having trouble grappling with the logistics of it, the guilt of kicking someone out of my home, of possibly having to just stand by while he undoubtedly tries to drag out the process. Seems like it’s time to do some more thinking…if anyone has any ideas that would be great. I’m really unfamiliar with how to handle something like this legally as well.

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