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That is very helpful and accurate, thanks.

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I want to thank you ALL for the useful comments. I haven’t come back often because even this forum opens the wounds too much to bear, BUT, I came to share (on another thread) today because of ongoing problems.

But over the years I have come away from my intense first love [and pain and disappointment] and kind of shrugged my shoulders and put it all aside, in an attempt to get through each day. I think probably that is the only healthy thing I can do.

I DO write things down, yes, but not as much as I used to.

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Hi, thanks for your comments. I’m not in a position to get help apart from a forum like this as everything I do and say would be observed – we are both at home all day. Over the years I have had short periods of counselling for mental health but it was useless. But it’s okay. Most days I can manage. I have gradually over the years accustomed myself to what life is like, and the really bad days are fewer now.

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I’m also new and struggling. It varies (because I choke it down just to keep going with ordinary life) but unlike others I haven’t left home or asked him to leave home, at least not for some years. The reasons are complex but are basically financial and practical, as I’m an older woman now. I’ll leave it there, so as just to say hello to the forum.

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Thank you SO much for your comments, and you are right (because you have lived it too).

I think one of my biggest fears or regrets is that over the years, in order to survive, I’ve crushed down any feeling or response – to the point of not even being able to remember what was said yesterday – but I know that has caused a LOT of emotional harm to me.

But if the alternative is just to make things a hundred times worse then silence and pushing it down into my subconscious is the only method of functionning in life at all.

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