I’m sorry you’re going through this, it sounds very similar to my situation we have 2 kids also, it feels like being trapped in a nightmare it’s a constant drip feed of abuse with some louder and more aggressive outbursts, i only left quite recently but still don’t feel better tbh. He used to put down anything I enjoyed like reading or cooking and for A time I stopped doing those things but then I decided that I had to fight it and day to day even reading a book began to feel like a small victory like a rebellion and I think it kept me sane and showed him that he couldn’t kill my spirit.. until I finally got the courage to leave
