Your post really stuck with me. I finally reached out today to WA and try and start the process of understanding and deciding if I do want to leave. I can’t disguise between his mental health issues and physical health issues, emotional abuse, love, insecurity and everything else inbetween. I do love this man and wen he’s a good man he’s great. I don’t know if I can leave because I can’t picture myself in a different scenario. I think I need to do some more reading and research. I feel like a fool, a fraud, a weakling and a mother all in the same body. I constantly need validation and acceptance from him. I feel like I can’t function or move without his permission. He never hurts me and often can b complimentary but other times he’s nasty , venomous and cruel. He hasn’t acknowledged r younger daughter in 3 days !
