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Thank you diymum

He’s destroyed me and somedays I feel
Like I can’t carry on, I’m terrifiedI’ll never be loved because he’s made me feel so worthless and the rest of my life is going to
Be lonely.

I lived on eggshells all my married life and my anxiety is so high, i just don’t know how to live my life or what to do.

Somedays I wish I didn’t have to wake up. What this man has done to me I fear I’ll never recover and the fact that they never take responsibility for their actions is just worse.

He’s going on holiday next for 2 weeks I actually can’t wait so I don’t have to have any contact with him, he never takes the children anywhere he told me this is my life and I’ll do exactly what I want.

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He is always going on about his mental health, how he can’t cope, how I drive him insane, how my actions makes him angry.
He blames me for his mental health.

He doesn’t care about me I know he doesn’t but why do I feel so much pain.

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Thank you lover of no contact

I wish I could understand why people treat people this way. I feel like he’s used me, he destroyed me and now moved on to the next person.

He constantly lies, yet he tells me his life is nothing to do with me. But he’s driving me insane I feel like I’m going crazy, crazy trying to understand how he treats me like this, the mother of his children and how he can so quickly discard us and move on to the next woman. I often wonder what’s so amazing about her.

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Thank you for your replies.

I’ve tried so hard to go no contact but he always finds a way.

I feel so stupid for feeling this way but he is probably all flowers and chocolates with his woman and he was never like that for me. Why was he and continues to be so vile to me and all lovely with his woman, I mean he must be after the message I saw. He left me for her so why won’t he leave me be? I mean why does he need to see my face?

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Thank you for your kind words.
His mother couldn’t understand why he’d left and I made a comment about him not being a great father, never spoke to me again.

He is like a Jekyll and Hyde figure he’s so sickeningly charming to others and then with me it’s like I’m something on the bottom of his shoe.

A part of me somewhere knows I’m not to blame for this, a huge part of me is full of self doubt. I know his actions are damaging me, he has crushed me and I feel like I’m just an empty shell, over the years he’s stripped me of everything and then turns round and says I deserve to be selfish.

I guess his family are always going to support him, he has no home, he has no money, so who knows what he is going to do with the children! Again not my problem.

I feel silly, weak, pathetic, foolish that I’m not a stronger person, but he lies so much and gets so angry when questioned, then the answer he replies with ‘what the f does it have to do with you?’

I have contacted Womensaid, I’m await a case worker to call me back. I’ve spoken to my GO, so unhelpful.

Is it normal that men like this take no responsibilities for their actions? Is it normal that they don’t show any sincerity when they hurt you so deeply, stone cold uncaring creatures, is this normal?

Thank you so much for your support

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Thank you for your replies xx

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