Wishbone

[Wishbone]

Hope your right soulsearcher18. Woke up this morning sweat dripping off me again I suffer from anxiety and get panic attacks so feel down again this morning. (was all so brave yesterday) I’m sure this feeling will pass. I’m up and down and had enough of this rollercoaster. Thanks again all the support here is great. I hope I can help others very soon.

[Wishbone]

Thanks dustypink. I believe your right and today has actually been a good day. I spoke to a very old friend today who I haven’t seen for a long time and made plans to meet up. Firstly I thought I was doing something so wrong and then I realised I would never have been able to do that with him. I started to feel ok then boom he appears to ask me if we are totally over for about 30 seconds I melted then he went straight into how bad I am and how I have made him think he’s not good enough for me and how I have done basically everything so bad to him and I just said your in denial you have to blame anyone except your self and I just said yes I am too good for you (inside I was shaking) I walked away burst into tears as it hurts so much but I am going to get through this. He’s not putting me down, degrading me and mentally abusing me. I am worth more than that. Hopefully I wake up tomorrow and feel the same and don’t have another melt down. Just need the waves of every emotion going to calm down. Maybe il wake up in tears I don’t know what tomorrow will bring buy hey I got through another day.

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Hi wise after. Yes great advice from soulsearcher18 and as much as I know your both right I’m stuck in this self pity and hurt like mad. I’m really struggling with all these emotions right now. Why am I suffering while he’s drinking away and laughing with others and just carries on like normal. Frustration anger and hurt it’s all there I feel sick constantly and so tired of it all. Just waiting for the day I wake up and the light bulb switches on. Hope your ok too.

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Hi Cecile I am new to this but wow you really hit a nerve with your post. Made me open my eyes a little wider. May sound a little bit weird I’m hurting so much so very scared of where my life is at and feel very weak right now but I actually like what your post has just done to me. Thanks

[Wishbone]

Hi I am really struggling cause I feel so alone my kids are growing up and have there own lives. I’ve just woke up sweats dripping off me and I’m sat shaking questioning everything. Some times I think it’s my doing then I think get a grip this man has messed my head up playing mind games he does what ever he wants yet I’m not allowed to do anything. Why do I love this man and why do I hurt so much over a guy that treats me this way. I literally feel like I can’t function. I don’t even know what I think any more all I know is how I have to not go back this time. He comes and goes in and out of my life week in week out and I constantly take him back believe all the words that I want to hear and somehow back to how bad I am. I really do feel so messed up. This has been my life for so long. I’m scared to be without him but I’m suffering with him. Even typing this message I can’t get the right words out sorry if im not making sense.

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