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Hiya
I wanted to give you some support to let you know I totally understand your coping mechanisms and how you want it all to stop.

I’m in a pretty bad place myself at mo so feels wrong giving advice when I can’t seem to take it myself!!!

But …… Don’t be so hard on yourself for a blip tonight you are an incredibly brave lady who has escaped and survived.
Don’t let him take the freedom now after all this fight?
Do you have any support? The helplines great for getting things off your chest aswell

Xxxxx

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Hi
Me and my little girl made it back to refuge.
Been one of the toughest weeks since we left!!
Still on this rollercoaster of not knowing what to do.
But I’m still hanging in there xx

Thank you so much for your amazing support as always xx

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Thank you all so so much
I thought you wpuld all hate me and I would never be able to post again as I am such a let down to myself and everyone else !

Just feel like it’s game over now and back to square one !!!

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Daisy
It won’t let me pm you 😢😢😢
I’ve emailed you X
I just feel so trapped and don’t know what to do – I’ve proper messed up x

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I cried so much last night , but now I’m back to being heartless and emotionlesss so I can just survive again and tell myself it will be ok X
Just getting on with everything now and manning up as he tells me x

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Oh god
Your advice and stories scare me .
I was too told that he would kill me …. But he has me right where he wants me and he’s not even living here !!
I have been a prisoner for past few days – police were really good when they came round and I soo wanted to just blurt everything out bit was so scared ! They were going to put me in b&b last night for my safety but I said no 😢

I am hopefully heading back to refuge tomor but to pack our stuff up and move back home … Gotta put a smile on my face and convince everyone it’s my decision !

I’m too scared to post on here what’s happened since I stepped foot in my house as I will lose my daughter 😢😢

Got no one to help me now xx

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Hi ayanna

Yes you are proberly right, but for some reason I am desperately hoping he has changed. Mad I know and I don’t know what has to happen to ever break the bond of me continually protecting him and still doing what he says.
I defiantly feel like I have grown stronger and he also maintains that he has our little girls best interests at heart.

I have managed tonight to stick to alcohol levels that I should so that is massive Step forward, although I have been awake nearly all night and when I have dropped off had horrific nightmares and cold sweats again.

One day I am hoping to be strong enough and as you say tell him to (removed by Moderator) 😀

Xx

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Hi Daisy

I really want things to be ok – just wanna shift that knot in my stomach !
I have applied for Hb but not heard anything back for refuge.
I have contacted ct if and don’t need to do anything until 1st April when new bills are issued.
Have applied for working family tax credits,
Am still technically working just haven’t been there so not sure how I stand ?
Am due back to work nx wk so bit of pressure there.

Am going to try and look at finances and everything else over nx few days as won’t have my daughter so will have abit more chance to make phone calls.

I have days when I can take on the world and think I can do this and then I have days when I feel like everything is so so hard.

Defo would have given in along time ago with this site xx

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Hi confused 123

Sorry it that question was too personal.
I have photographic evidence and a recording on my phone of him admitting everything that has been sent to my idva.
Once when I saw the police they took photos of injuries.
I also have evidence logged with sarc and when I moved to refuge I had to see Gp immediately because of my injuries.

I can’t imagine how hard it was for you.
I’m just so scared something will go wrong and I will not be protected enough!
And just don’t feel strong enough yet .

I really admire you though Hun

Xx

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Sorry not star meant move ha

And meant don’t have contingency plan re night yet x

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Hi Daisy

Thank you so much for looking out for us, (if I had a mum I would like someone like you ) 😀
I’m really lucky to have good supportive friends so I’m sure one can stay .
Yeah it’s a joint mortgage am trying to chance it to interest only so I can afford to live.

I think he will be fine so that I think everything will be ok and safe to move back ….. I don’t know what his next star is at mo.

I feel I am doing ok at mo and feeling stronger so have taken steps for tomor.

I don’t have any plans in place but will have a think about that

Thank you xx

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I’m in a similar situation and I so know the right thing to do is report and I have a lot of evidence but just don’t feel strong enough yet- can I ask … How did you know when the time was right? Xx

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Some good tips thank you
I am in mass financial difficulties and don’t know where to start as he has left me with debts.
Has put half mortgage money in and that’s it !!!
So I won’t be able to pay the bills or anything – he keeps saying I left him so o have to deal with it .

I’ve used my credit card so much to survive since being in refuge – but really need to sort myself out.

Xx

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Hi Hun
You have been through so much and I take on board your advice.
I have arranged drop off for contact at social services office so I will not be seeing him, as safety plans are in place for us not to meet.

I am not moving back to the house to live at present. I am going back to see how I feel might not even stay there the night.
I need to take some responsibility as he has just left the house and told me to sort it !!

I am sure he won’t get me tomor as he will be spending time with our daughter so surly he won’t jepodise that !

Please don’t think I ignore advice I hear what you are saying but it’s so so hard when to go against him would always cause repercussions 😢

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I am so sorry to read this Hun and can’t imagine how you must feel.
You sound so strong though Hun and you are right you are still a true survivor
Big hugs
Xx

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