MovingTarget

[MovingTarget]

More today. I’m dealing better with it now but I have to keep moving photos around because if I go to look for something and see a pic I feel sad.

I hate him for doing this. Trying to take MORE from me. Well at the moment he is taking it. My feelings run very deep for some things so when I say hate, I mean I sort of snarl when I think about him. From a Gary Numan song:

At the end when your God forgets you
Does a moment of truth touch the heartless?

[MovingTarget]

This makes me happy and somehow makes up for some of my pain. Keep going 🙂 xx

[MovingTarget]

Thank you SingleMomSurvivor..

It really is unfathomable to me. This is now the fourth generation he’s affecting in my family.

(detail removed by Moderator) I got a couple of messages from “her” and “she” (detail removed by Moderator). No pics or videos of the baby and we’d normally talk on and off all day. The worst though was the few messages I did get I just started crying because what I mostly felt was suspicion – was it him or her? The trust has gone for now 🙁

I’ve been talking to my dad and my sister-in-law (mother of my nephews and sons of my deceased brother). My dad and his wife, and SIL are nice, “normal” (non-toxic) people and things are so easy!

Dad’s trying to keep me focused on things like the (detail removed by Moderator) – and it is important to me because I was pretty close to my brother and those boys are all that’s left of him – but the thing with the others is like that rotten feeling you get in the pit of your stomach after a break-up which just lurks and is ready to pounce.

I’ll go to the shops this morning and probably buy some craft stuff – jewellery making and that sort of thing. I love to sit here creating things and listening to music.. When I’m not staring blankly at the wall in disbelief :\

Cheers,
MT x

[MovingTarget]

I was just starting to forget about it but it crept back in.

I’m so tired of it it’s becoming “sick of it” at times. Which might well be the healthiest/best way to be in the greater scheme of things.

But of all the things I’ve been through, the year of court was the worst (detail removed by moderator)

All the best xxx

[MovingTarget]

Same. I’m about to write a post about it x

[MovingTarget]

Same. I’m about to write a post about it x

[MovingTarget]

Hi littlemissgettingthere,

I’m experiencing it with the next generation ie. grandchild. How much control do these men want??

(detail removed by Moderator) I was accused of things that are so uncharacteristic of me I was just amazed. (detail removed by Moderator) I noticed something very uncharacteristic of my child and very characteristic of him though.

I think they’ll believe you. Truth is more powerful than deceit. Some of these people must lie so much they don’t know what’s real and what isn’t, and that must be horrible. Madonna said “the only real protection in life is self-belief” and I have that.

Congratulations on getting out xx

[Author]

Posts