Blue7

[Blue7]

My ex found out the town I had moved to and all of a sudden had a ‘new friend’ in that town so contacted me to tell me incase I saw them and was shocked.

It’s all mind games used to intimidate and put you on edge.

If I see him I’ll smile and say hi like I don’t give a f**k. I won’t let him know he’s hurting me.

[Blue7]

I feel this way right now too…but you guys are right. I look back at photos and remember the bad things that happened that day or week and it snaps me back into the here is why I got out.

I miss the him that was being nice to me when he wanted me back. I don’t miss the everyday him, the put downs, the speaking to me like I’m a child, the silent treatment, the angry outbursts and door punching. I do not want that.

I think these men put on a good show when they think we are going to leave which tricks us because we can love and forgive. Something they can’t do. X

[Blue7]

Hey,

I left and went back five times!! Hoping each and every time he would get better, get help, change. My friends and family couldn’t understand why. He would promise me the dream and I’d fall for it. It was only a month ago I left for the last time and I still miss him. I type texts but delete them. I’m growing ever stronger. It’s a process and you will leave when you are ready. Don’t be hard on yourself. You’ve got this. Be strong. X

[Blue7]

I am sitting in shock reading all of these responses. It is like I have written them all myself. My ex husband would do this to me too. Sometimes for days at a time. Sometimes it would be something I wasn’t expecting that triggered him and completely out of the Blue. I’d be ignored but he’d still chat away happily to the kids. It was so hurtful.

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