Ineedcoffee

[Ineedcoffee]

Thank you all for your messages, he’s already started to undermine me, and it makes me worried how he’s going to be when baby is here

[Ineedcoffee]

Thank you so much, I have made a start, I just said I was having a clear out, but I’m just trying to see how much stuff I’ve actually got, I’ve been getting back in contact with friends that I lost since moving. Trying to stay positive

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Yes I would, yes I want to, yes I do, he has never physically hurt me, but has mentally and emotionally, no I haven’t, there are afew things I need to do before I do leave, I’ve wanted to so many times, I just needed to vent, thank you so much for your quick response

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Thank you all so much, I will try and voice record definitely, and keep a journal, I am not mad, I will keep telling myself and believe it, as he’s injured at the moment and still working I think this is going to continue until he feels better, I am under no illusion that it will ever stop tho

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It just makes me so upset and angry, sometimes I cope well and just smile as he says things and sometimes I have to cry, I’m going to start a journal, but it’ll have to be on my phone I can’t risk him finding it, thank you so much for your replies, I did feel like I’m going mad, but reading your messages really helps to ground myself again

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Oh I forgot to say probably my parents, but the catch there is when I left my last partner because he was similar but stalked me, I moved back with them and (detail removed by moderator) he was in the kitchen with my mum and dad having coffee, so I’m abit scared that he will find his way back into my life, as they are still friends with him, and my current partner knows what he was like and used that against me

 

[Ineedcoffee]

Hi wants to help,
I didn’t even realise it was physical abuse, he’s only done it the once, I very rarely go out on my own, and (before lockdown) I can count on one hand how many times I’ve actually seen my friends, And even if I did get to see them I’m not the same person anymore, I feel like I’ve lost myself. We literally do everything together, he gets to go out and see his friends while I’m left at home, he normally tells me what he want me doing, even done to what he expects when he gets home, I think I put it on my last post aswell if it’s not 3 times a day he gets grumpy, even when I’m on my period me expects something sexual, I feel like sometimes I just need afew hours to myself to even do nothing, maybe read a book or go for a walk, I’m not very good at writing and explaining, so I hope I made some sort of sense
Thank you again for replying to me

[Ineedcoffee]

Thank you so much I will try that definitely, it’s a little more complicated, he’s self employed and when his vehicle broke down (which I had paid for repairs) I bought a new one, so I have (detail removed by moderator) vehicles and I don’t want to leave either, he speaks to my sister so I don’t feel that’s an option also she has children, he bought me a kitten which I also want to take with me, is that selfish? I have also lent him a lot of money which I know that I won’t get back, when his (detail removed by moderator) he didn’t have enough to help her so I stepped in and lent him the money and he said he would pay me back but I know that’s not going to happen, and if I said I needed to go to boots he would probably come with me

 

 

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