Darkclouds321

[Darkclouds321]

I’m still at the beginning after going back several times but I will not go back again. Each day I feel stronger and know it’s not ok and I don’t deserve what he did.
Well done xx

[Darkclouds321]

My rational head I know I deserve better I know my kids deserve better. One of them was involved in this incident and could have been seriously injured.
He has no care for me or the safety of them. But why, the hate on his face when he did that to me was awful that’s what I keep picturing why did I deserve that.
Yet still I want to run to him and fix it as I always do because it’s built in me to keep going
It’s this horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach from the moment I wake up to going to bed

[Darkclouds321]

You have not created this fear, trust your feelings and your instincts.
At the end of they day whatever he does or you do you know the truth. Stick by it, remind yourself on the bad days and when he’s trying to make you doubt yourself.
It doesn’t matter what anyone thinks, it hurts but it doesn’t matter.
After everything you have been through you deserve happiness in yourself. To not feel scared and enjoy your life xxx

[Darkclouds321]

Hold on in there. In only at the start of this and I feel so drained so I can imagine how you are feeling.
It so hard when you have kids together, makes it a lot more complicated. I’m trying to protect our child from him now as he was very physically abusive.
He is just getting on with his life spreading lies
While I’m trying to hold it all together. I have had days abd good days, this week has actually been ok for me which has been a surprise.
Try do things you like distract yourself, let yourself find you. Big hugs xxx

[Darkclouds321]

That’s not right what he has done to you. You need to get help. Have you got any members of your family that believe you or can support you?
Is he like that with your mum? Sending you hugs xx

[Darkclouds321]

Thank you for your support and words 🙂
This will be a long journey but it is a beginning and I refuse to let him ruin the rest of my life. It is just going to be a long battle.
It is nice to know I’m not alone
X

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