Freedompoppy

[Freedompoppy]

Thank you,

I have been put on medication for my night terrors and I’m on the waiting list for my therapy but could be up to a year.
It’s nice to hear that this is normal what km experiencing; I just want to feel that bit better that’s all. This is so hard

[Freedompoppy]

Watersprite

Thank you for your kinds words. Hopefully my IDVA officer can answer some of my questions today. Everyone said it’s early days but it feels a life time since I left and it’s coming thick and fast how abusive he was and how much the police failed me back then, i have to take the blame because I feel back into his trap (detail removed by moderator). So me reporting it back (detail removed by moderator) will the police keep that file and have him on radar? I never spoke about the sexual side and wouldn’t dare go against him because I saw it as normal what he did. Believe it or not he’s a (detail removed by moderator) in a high powered job and I feel they protect their own. ( he’s not a police officer ) I just want to make a statement and not take it any further I hope I can. Thank u all for your advice and if u have any more it would be appreciate. The risk of reporting… do I run with the freedom and hope his new partner doesn’t get hurt or do I set myself free and do the right thing
It’s so hard and my friends think I can’t move on from the sexual side because I know deep down it’s vile.

[Freedompoppy]

I withdrew my statement, he(detail removed by moderator) and I fell for the I’m sorry act.
The cps said the amount of data was huge, he use to send (detail removed by moderator). I never was off my phone.
He’s been quiet now for (detail removed by moderator), I haven’t heard a peep so part of me wants to run with the freedom and the other part is saying he done wrong.

[Freedompoppy]

Thank u KIP

The risk would be he would know it was me even if I did it anonymously. I did speak to victim support and they said I would have to report it as sexual abuse. But for me it’s more I was in a coercive and controlling relationship and he was violent through sexual acts. Since I left the relationship I know it sounds crazy but for my recovery Iv gone through all our data and put it under heading such as coercion/sexual injuries etc. I don’t think I’m ready no to call the police and as he has sexually abused me because I’m only (detail removed by moderator) away. However my biggest question is if I was such a high risk homicide why didn’t cps see it through for public interest. I have later found out is was Not dealt with by a domestic abuse officer either, just cps and uniformed front line. Iv been searching so much for the right thing to do and only want them aware of this awful man who’s walking around and could hurt someone

[Freedompoppy]

Thank you all for replying, isn’t there a way you can have a informal chat with a police officer?
I just want them to be aware of how cruel this man is and could be to someone else

[Freedompoppy]

Thank you for replying, I’m thought it was just me thinking this way and with the night terrors. I have been to the drs and Iv been put on medication. The news just makes me angry that he has got a way what he’s done to me. I’m in my trama therapy for the sexual abuse and i feel it’s making me worse too. This is the first time I have stayed no contact for this long and I’m finding it all fo hard what affect this has had on my health. That and I’m aware he’s with someone new and i can do this to someone else. Why wasn’t I strong enough to see it through with the police 😣

[Freedompoppy]

I felt the same! Everything you wrote. I don’t know if this would help, but HG Tudor on YouTube helped me understand more who I was dealing with. It was like he knew my ex… it’s scary. Knowledge is power apparently. I can’t remember the amount of times I left only to get pulled back. I’m only (detail removed by Moderator) weeks free and it is hard. But it’s harder in it.

[Freedompoppy]

Thank you Darcy, means a lot to hear your kind words x

[Freedompoppy]

If you don’t feel ready then don’t, but my friend put me on to him, he explains narcissist. Emotional abuse, it’s helped me but everyone is different. I just wanted to share what I felt helped and it did. I listen to him everyday and he explains all the behaviours. It’s so hard and I’m only (detail removed by Moderator) weeks free of contact. If u ever want to talk give me a message. X

[Freedompoppy]

Hi, I’m in the same position it’s so scary reaching out isn’t it. But your strong too. I really hope ur ok and if u ever needed to talk please give me a message
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