Miles

[Miles]

Hi sunflower
I’m so happy for you.
It’s the start to you being you again without the BS
They lie make up stuff get us believing their stories and doubting ourselves that’s the only thing they are ever good at. Keep going stay strong Sunflowers shine and glow in the sun that will be you one day when you can finally feel free and at peace x

[Miles]

Hi everyone
I am always contemplating how to leave have been for about (detail removed by Moderator) or more.. my wish for peace of mind has shifted over the years as has his behaviour. I do feel differently when he starts nonsense, and creates situations that used to make me respond or react to which I would then get called lots of colourful names and a victim.
I’m still working out how to leave unfortunately my experience of sharing situation with professionals has not been a positive one.
Even to the point of a DA police women (detail removed by Moderator) calling me a liar , of course I can’t do anything with this so just stopped telling people.

[Miles]

Thanks for replying
Yes I know they can be so manipulative
I make steps to go then feel like it’s out on hold again due to his threats
I apparently will mess things up for him
Can you believe the s***t they come out with
I’m determined to make a better life for me and my son but at what risk ?
He always makes me believe he will react worse than ever if he is effected by me going
I will get there just need to stay calm and work through it

[Miles]

I had a similar dilemma
I didn’t want to go into a refuge simply because I lived in a mother and baby hostel when I was (detail removed by Moderator) with my first son and refuse to live in one with my now youngest son at the age of (detail removed by Moderator) I just can’t do it
And to top it off being told it could be far away forget it
I called my local IDVA got advice
Then called housing advice have an appointment next week hoping to get on to help to let scheme where I can rent private and move that way
Fingers crossed

[Miles]

Funny thing happened (removed by moderator) they sang the song below
Says it all really xxx

I used to bite my tongue and hold my breath
Scared to rock the boat and make a mess
So I sat quietly, agreed politely
I guess that I forgot I had a choice
I let you push me past the breaking point
I stood for nothing, so I fell for everything

You held me down, but I got up (hey!)
Already brushing off the dust
You hear my voice, your hear that sound
Like thunder, gonna shake your ground
You held me down, but I got up
Get ready ’cause I’ve had enough
I see it all, I see it now

I got the eye of the tiger, a fighter
Dancing through the fire
‘Cause I am the champion, and you’re gonna hear me roar
Louder, louder than a lion
‘Cause I am a champion, and you’re gonna hear me roar!

[Miles]

Hi
I completely get where you are
This is the first time for on here
After x amount of time seems like a life time I have taken steps to leave
I have walked out before and always returned the same day not being confident to do anything about it or to make the call to help me leave always with my young son in tow
I feel so much stronger now than I have ever felt, I don’t love him or even like him which I think has helped in my decision
I need a fresh start with my son
Up until now I have begun to really think I am loosing the plot
I know it’s because of how he has made me feel about myself
I have an appointment with housing next week
Have spoken to my local IDVA for support as well as a work colleague who has been through the same
So I’m doing it
I’m making those important decisions and steps to finally leave and be happy

Us women are stronger than we think

I also googled the word survivor …
It means fighter …. x

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