Nor82

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Feeling confused, thought in was doing so well until my ex decided to message a mutual friend of ours last night with a message for me! Unfourtunatley she doesn’t know what’s gone on between us and how bad things got. Basically I’m now getting all the sorry and I love you etc, etc, his even saying his having suicidal thoughts! I wish I never read this message I feel like its taken me back to square one and my emotions are everywhere, he knows his not allowed to contact me and I’ve blocked his number on every device so there is no other way he can contact me. Part of me feels sorry for him, and the other part of me is pleased that his so distressed after what he did to me and my children is this normal what I’m feeling, I would never in a million years go back I just wish he would leave me alone if he loved me that much he would never have done this in the first place. His also stated that I should swallow my pride and take some blame as it wasn’t all his fault that comment alone reminded me of how things were is it my fault his making me question my own judgement x

[Nor82]

Thank you, soo proud of myself the look on his face was priceless let him do his worst he has no power over me x

[Nor82]

Your right I will never be the same person again, but I’m so proud and all of ladies should be that we got out! And if your still living it please just tell someone anyone you will be surprised how much support is available. Even if I only had the clothes on my back my life would have more existence then my life with him. Peace of mind is everything, I know some people stay for financial reasons but its bricks and water material things can be replaced you will not end up on the streets or go hungry please do the right thing and save yourself x

[Nor82]

I feel the same the past (detail removed by moderator) years have been a lie, I just wanted a happy loving relationship and I thought that’s what I had till he changed!. Spending a lot of time alone thinking is not helping feeling low today x

[Nor82]

Yes please cut ties I’ve just left my second abusive relationship, they don’t change I was with my ex Partner for (removed by moderator) then we starting dating 3 yrs after being separated he promised me he had changed and I believed him he even cried and told me how he remembered treating me so bad! But believe me that latest 2 months then he was worse if anything nothing had changed!. I then finished it with him was single for a year and fell head over heals for a man who promised me the world and would have gave it to me but 18 months down the line and I’ve left him I can’t brlieve I let it happen again! Stay strong you need any man x

[Nor82]

Thank you soo much for your kind words, I’m not having any contact with him I’ve blocked him on every device and social media, I’ve got court in the morning feeling really nervous I hope his not there. Because of the injunction he can’t come to my property but he wants to get his belongings so his taking me to court to ask for permission if he can come to my house with police to get his things! I’m not sure how this works but I’m so scared of him I can’t bare the thought of seeing or even hearing his voice he makes me feel physicslly sick and my body starts shaking if I think he was coming near me. So it’s a no from me I hope the judge will symphaise with me, I font care who gets he stuff believe me I want it gone just not him I’m not ready or strong enough to deal with him being that close to me. Brings it all back, unfourtunrtly I saw him on Sat I was out shopping and so was he, he walked past and laughed at me how low is that he thinks its funny properly put a smile on his face when he read my ten page statement that he scared me soo much I hate the fact that he knows this too. Thanks again for your advise stay strong ladies xx

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Angry is a good place to be its better than crying! Keep going and stay strong the only thing that is getting me through my ordeal is the bad things he did, yes there maybe be times where I think I miss him or was it my fault but he wasn’t the person he portrayed to be his not the man I fell in love with it took 18 months for him to show his true colours! So every time I’m having a moment I read my ten page statement that granted my injunction just to remind me of how evil he was keep going! X

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That’s so great to hear, well done I can’t wait to feel happy and free again its only been two weeks for me so my emotions are up and down and I have court hanging over my head.but its nice to read positive comments x

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Thanks katielove, I’m willing for anyone to collect his things just not him. He actually walked past me in our local shopping centre and laughed at me as I walked on the sight of him makes my skin crawl. I hope your situation gets better for you my ex got a caution because he admitted to being violent for criminal damage on my property they called it goodwill character makes me sick! But then they are good a making themself look good! X

[Nor82]

Can anyone help? Time my abusive ex Partner is taking me to court as I have an injunction out on him and he wants to come into my property to collect his things with his brother and the police. I’m petrified of this man he makes me feel physically sick and it brings on panic attacks at just the thought of seeing him. Does anyone know how this works will (removed by moderator) and will I have to let him in my home I font care who collects his things as long as its not him….any advise

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Hi, I’m new here

It’s been (removed by moderator) since I’ve left my abusive ex Partner,I’m going through so many different emotions and I’m sad to say the worst thing I can’t get my head around is how charming he was and how I really thought he loved me we was going to get married and was trying for a baby.sounds crazy now he manipulated me in every sense and was a compulsive lier I should have left sooner but I never thought in a million years he would threaten me and my children they were not his, and now we are apart I can see it so clear he was jealous of my children he would pick on them to get to me. I told him my children would always come first I guess that made him mad inside too! I knew he had a temper but nothing like I’ve ever seen when he finally showed his true colours when I told him the relationship was over. He told me it was my fault as during the relationship he would tell me you don’t know what I am really like and he was right I didn’t! So in should have left him sooner and now I’ve got to shut up and put up in other words. Even after everything he put me and my children through I still sit here and miss him its not normal surely I should hate him! I wish I could but I’m not made that way which is how men take advantage this is my second dv relationship in ten years I put up with it for 4 yrs the first time and that was physical. I thought I would spot the signs but this one was soo different he would have moved the earth for me its mental how he tricked me and my friends and family into believing he was the best man anyone could have met!. The sad thing is I know deep down he wanted to be that man but something wouldn’t let him or he was scared to let go or get too close I’m not making excuses I think he is vile for what he has done and I also know he has no remorse I’ve had to get an injunction on him to protect me and my children. I just feel numb and confused to how I’m back here again reliving this nightmare x

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