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Ahhh … Thankyou Serenity. Yes, it can really be so easy to loose ourselves, at times. One of my things is that I can often forget to reach out for, help, when I’m feeling low. This is partly due to my (often) feicely indipendent nature (Which my abuser hated & tried to tamper as much as he possible could .. with every abusive/controlling tactic he could come up with , coerhesion, intimidation, gas -lighting, violence .. you name it … Partly down to me just not always feeling that I am worthy of support. And partly because I tend to get very busy with stuff. Also I find that phone -face to face support usually works s but better for me.
But it’s good to reconnect on here tho (and I know I don’t really post that I much ) but even if just for the brief validation of being listened to, understood and knowing that I’m not alone in this ( I can often relate so much to what others have posted, and sometimes that’s enough)
You’re all so amazing and inspire me so much, just by being yourselves !
Thank you 😊 xxx

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… sorry, lots of typos in that post ( was typing fast, because the connection wasn’t too good and diddn’t wont to loose the flow .. ) but hope you manage to get the general gist!

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Sorry typing too fast ..
Meant..
* don’t be afraid to off load
And * reassure- not erasure!

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I’m so sorry you’re feeling this at Eve. It’s not you’re fault, no one had the right to treat you the wat you’re Dad has. Yourw never alone .. there will always be some one who understands.. and were’re all here. Remember that council era are trained and paid to feel with an entire range of issues. Do t be afraid to to take up you’re time with them and to off load, no matter *what* the issue – it’s you’re time and their *job* to deal support you ( no matter what tte issues) you can even explain to them how unvomftabke you feel about *off loading* onto them. If they are a good councilor and doing their job properly they will understand and support and erasure you on this issue too. With you’re son,maybe try to be honest with him too.( I don’t know his age, but perhaps try explain as simply as possible that Mummy’s not feeling too good today..) thees no shame in this, were all human and maybe could be an opportunity fit him to learn that it’s ok to not be ok.I don’t know you’re full situation of course but hope that’s of some help – sensing lots of love and hugs you’re way x

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Thankyou healthyarchive and serenity. Nice to be back I’m glad that you feel you have come through and feel able to experience many wonderful things too healthyarchive, I like you’re statement about ‘treading on egg shells and living in fear’ … Yes I usally remind myself of exactly that, at times when the doubt of whether I have made the right decsion to leave (which I can say is not *so* often nowadays) creeps in. When I think about it, I find so much more possibility and opportunity opening up in my life now, in comparison to the limited life I lived when I was with him. Can’t believe how much I normalized that😯!
And thankyou for for you’re warm welcome back Serenety, it feels nice to be in company with you all again ☺️Xx

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Happy Easter serenity. I was a bit lost yesterday .. as was working (removed by moderator) and missed my night out with my friends. And my family are abroad with my daughter ( lots I’m mind re work and not really been knuckling down to do anything constructive about it😏 But managing to indulge a bit with a cupa and some yummy choc buiscuits today …. Omnomnom Xx

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Sorry meat to reply for ages to this … Thanks ladies Still lots to share ofcourse, especially re changes of work routine / and haveing to Sharing info about my PDST ) ect..
But for now I’ve been enjoying some ‘me’ time today even tho it’s now 17:00 and not organised stuff yet .. Still gonna go gentle on myself and enjoy this peaceful, sunny Good Fri 😊 As much as I can x

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Aaaawah.. Thankyou Daisy, Xxx

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… Just noticed that , some of that was cut and pasted onto the same page twice .. So it repeats in a coople of places ., sorry !

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