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21st February 2022 at 9:33 pm #139425Bestchance07Participant
Thanks ladies!! Been offline due to the recent storms disrupting everything but to log back in and read your supportive comments has made me smile.
Its been a funny ole day, kids have been with their Dad for the weekend and my youngest keeps telling me how sad Daddy is and how I must not ever get another boyfriend as Daddy would be more sad. He was begging me to move back in with Daddy so things could go back to normal. I tried to explain that actually I was really sad for years and years but hid it from everyone as I didnt want the children to see my sad and worry
But he just doesn’t believe me. Breaks my heart….his Dad could of killed him as a baby it was a stroke of luck that avoided disaster that day, yet I cannot tell him that. I don’t want to ruin the relationship he has with his Dad, but this is at detriment to myself. Thats a hard pill to swallow.
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16th January 2022 at 1:33 am #137188Bestchance07Participant
Maybe try the live chat function on here. I am pretty sure its anonymous, nobody will turn upon your doorstep from that. Please please take that first step and make contact. It will feel hard, but a relief somewhat after x
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14th January 2022 at 10:53 pm #137126Bestchance07Participant
The womens aid helpline is so supportive, as is the live chat. Picking up the phone is daunting but everything is the first time you do it. If you make the call, then you will find it opens the door to you being able to ask for help elsewhere. Wishing you all the best x
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11th January 2022 at 9:46 pm #136893Bestchance07Participant
Newyearnewme2022 you are not damaged, and I am sure you are a strong, courageous lady to have gone through what you have.
Have you tried any of the counselling programs mentioned on here? Alot of the ladies here mention the Freedom programme? I self referred and I am currently waiting for my first session so I cannot vouch for it yet myself, but it sounds like it could be really helpful.
And reach out to all of us on here. We are all here to help each other. I dip in and out, there are days when I dont want to admit I am the victim of abuse so struggle to come on here, but days when its helpful. x
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11th January 2022 at 9:37 pm #136892Bestchance07Participant
Darcy thank you for this.
I have stopped trying to work him out, I am just angry with him for making me so afraid, playing on my anxieties, taking away years of my life when I could of been happy, leaving me in this wierd, bewildering state of limbo. I don’t want to waste my energy on being angry, but its a feeling I have to acknowlege I have at the moment.
But I am so grateful for what I have learnt about myself from it, I am stronger than I thought, more resiliant. I know what my boundaries are now. Any red flags and I feel I have what it takes to walk away. In practise, who knows, but that is the strength I wish to achieve. Right now I need to decompress…. focus on me, but I will come back stronger xx
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11th January 2022 at 11:27 am #136852Bestchance07Participant
I needed this right now, thanks KitKat and Twisted Sister as I feel very much the same. I was on the end of alot of ne calling yesterday, infront of my youngest and my eldest overheard. It is so hard to know how to explain what is happening without mentioning there Dad.
I found a little grid online which explains the qualities of a good, positive relationship. I am going to sit down with the kids tonight and go through it with them, ask their opinions. Might open up the conversation without actually referring to him.
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11th January 2022 at 11:15 am #136850Bestchance07Participant
I am living in the same house as my abuser too,for similar reasons. Have you tried universal credit? Please call their CAB helpline as you are entitled to some help from them in cases of DV and DA whilst you make arrangements with the house. I say this whilst still awaiting the outcome of my assessment.
I completely feel your pain, you are really not alone. He dominates the house with his things, doinates our children. Takes the liberty of walking through (detail removed by moderator). Its like prison. x
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6th January 2022 at 1:24 pm #136610Bestchance07Participant
Iliketea, you have been an amazing help and support to me too. Thank you.
I really feel I will be writing the exact same content this time next year. He is already doing the Disney Dad thing, my eldest is suspicious of everything I do and told me he doesnt think I am entitled to any money from the house, its all his Dads!!! But yes, it appears that there is a new extravagant purchase in his name on the way……
Everyone tells me the kids will see through it, but the world is so materialistic these days, I genuinely have my doubts.
Do you feel angry? I feel completely overcome with anger (mainly at him but also myself) that I have wasted so many years of my precious life at his hands, and that due to the trauma he has put me through, it will be a good few years before I can really move on with mine. I can recall who I was beforehand, someone who appeared strong, confident and independant, but underneath, I really lacked self confidence. Part of the reason I completely ignored the red flags, let go of the things that were important to me and honestly thought I would never find anyone else that would want to be with me.
It sounds like you have done alot of soul dearching too. And alot of healing. You have changed and grown in strength. He hasnt I presume, he may have the glossy shiney insta-worthy life but behind it all, he is the same abusive guy you dealt with Trust in this and thst ultimately, he will show his true colours again. And the time will come when you do find domeone who treats you right and is worthy of you by their side. You will be happy again. I tell myself this daily. It may not be today, this week ir even this year.. but happiness is coming. -
5th January 2022 at 9:11 pm #136582Bestchance07Participant
I am sorry to hear your story. It sounds like you really haven’t had it easy and I feel your frustration. I have the same issues with the fixed rate Book yourself a session with an independant mortgage/financial advisor. Depending on the product, you have options.
I am moving out of my jointly owned property and found that universal credit can sometimes help in cases of DA with housing costs (waiting to hear hpw much help tbh!) The help is there for a short period of time whilst arrangements are made for the house to be sold/bought out etc.
Hopefully some of the others on here can offer some advice tooStay strong and keep going. Sometimes all the info seems overwhelming. The best piece of advice I was given so far is to treat leaving as a full time job. Journal everything, use every resource possible, plan ahead.
xx
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5th January 2022 at 7:08 pm #136577Bestchance07Participant
Thanks gettingtired, I am glad I am not the only one who struggles. I was beginning to think it was just me. And that is no offence to the amazing supportive women on here.
Nope, I fully agree, I am really not ready. I have found in conversations I have quizzed this guy on all the things that have triggered my ex’es episodes and I am always hoping for reassurance from him. I want my self esteem back…. I want myself back so I can give a relationship my best shot when the time is right. I can completely see how some people go from relationship to relationship though.
Thank you for the book recommendation. Someone else recommended Your Other Half which I found helpful, but it kinda only scratched the surfaceThanks!! I really hope you can get out soon too. Holding deposit paid today. Getting real!
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1st January 2022 at 8:33 pm #136387Bestchance07Participant
Anotherlife, I completely get this.
I am currently in my room whilst my ex enjoys the rest of the house and the TV with my children. Splashing the cash on them, discussing what amazing things they are going to do and places they are going to go. Its been the same all over Christmas. My youngest has hardly said a word tp me all day. Before then, my kids would be with me all the time 7 days a week whilst he went off doing his hobbies etc etc. Now they want nothing to do with me.
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26th December 2021 at 11:57 pm #136056Bestchance07Participant
Thanks Kip and Merry Christmas to you too. Thanks for all your invaluable advice in 2021 and being such a vital contributor to this forum. I wish you well for 2022 heartfelt best wishes to you
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14th January 2022 at 8:07 am #137078Bestchance07Participant
Hi Kitkat, yes thats the one. The power and contr wheel vs the healthy relationship wheel is the deluth model. I spent some time last night reading up on it, I am going to try showing it to the kids when we are out of the house.
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13th January 2022 at 9:48 pm #137053Bestchance07Participant
I meant the Duluth model.
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13th January 2022 at 9:47 pm #137052Bestchance07Participant
Hi Medusa,
I am in a similar situation as my ex said a similar thing to our kids. It sounds harsh but I cannot spend time debating it with them now, I am getting out and then I will sit down and talk to them about it. I get the ‘but Daddy still loves you’ ‘Daddy is so unhappy’ The most I tend to say is that I have been unhappy for years and years and actually, we will both be happier in the future, it is just their Dad cannot see it yet.
I spoke to my DV support worker today and she suggested a L something or other wheel. One shows unhealthy relationships, one healthy relationships… maybe someone on here knows what I nean as I am not explaining it well. I will google it and see if I can find it x
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