Jellyx

[Jellyx]

Yeah I’ve tried to explain to him on many many different occasions but each time he would justify it say it’s because he’s passionate about us he loves me he’s acting like it’s basically my fault anyway said he would change but he never did then it was just thus awful circle I got stuck in and eventually I just stopped trying to get him to change and realised there would always be an excuse. It’s honestly like trying to draw blood from a rock pointless and extremely hurful xxx sending lots of love ❤️❤️

[Jellyx]

Thank you for replying it means a lot I have considered going to my gp as I think I just need some help getting through this extremely difficult and emotional experience. Being in the place I am now is a million times better than before and if I stayed I would have had lockdown with him and that I don’t even hate thinking about ! I’m just waiting for my new place and new beginnings for me and the boys ! Sometimes just being positive is so hard as I feel like all I ever did was try to be positive only to end up where I am now. Keep looking forward with smiles I suppose xxx

[Jellyx]

Thanks for replying, I am currently in a refugee and I have great support from woman’s aid I guess I just miss the interaction from friends. I feel like bridges have been burned there I have tried reaching out in the past and been ignored so it’s a hard one. My life is different now with the kids and things and possibly I just don’t have that much in common with them anymore ! I hope I meet similar ladies as my life starts to calm down again with more in common. I do think it’s true though that I just didn’t want to moan to them anymore! I think I wasn’t tired of hearing the truth from them when I didn’t want too. To be honest every decision I made with him was always to keep him happy and to better him.. so silly really 😔 x

[Jellyx]

Yes yes yes! I am at this stage right now where I feel that he deserves so much badness in his life but always seems to look happy. He has taken so much from me stolen years from me ruined my self esteem everything. The only light is that he will never be happy he can’t be remember that. He always has to have someone to control and abuse he doesn’t know a normal loving relationship but we will we will feel love real love in our lives he WILL NEVER 💜💜💜

[Jellyx]

I relate to your story massively. My ex didn’t leave me alone when he did he would keep tabs on me or just make my life a nightmare so I didn’t want to leave him as it was easier to just stay with him. I waited till he had left out on the rare occasion he did and I went quickly with my mum and a van. However if this isn’t an option I’d there not a way you could message a friend or someone who could contact them on your behalf. Coming to a refugee has helped me massively and I wouldn’t have been able to cope staying with him especially under lockdown. If there is anyone you can reach out to please do 💜 sending positive vibes. Keep your head up I have bad days but I still have to keep going we all do you are worth so much more ❤️ Xx

[Jellyx]

I have been in here for a few months. When I came here I was told 12-18 months for a council house however with the virus I think it will be much longer (the area I live in is very High demand for homes !) it’s not the best as it’s quite small for myself and my three children but so much better than where I wasn’t before my partner was extremely mentally abusive and the home was in his name so didn’t need leave me much of an option. Sending lots of positive vibes you’re way xx

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