Newgirl

[Newgirl]

Thank you for your kind words! They mean so much and help keep the strength to keep going!
I have no regrets with my kids I’ve done the best I can and no they are not perfect but who is! I will always love and support them and they know that! Thankfully they are not little anymore so they can see what’s happening. I’m holding onto that light and fingers crossed it’s coming soon x thank you so much for taking the time to comment 💕

[Newgirl]

Thank you x fingers crossed had enough

[Newgirl]

Yes we all deserve some peace from this x

[Newgirl]

100% we can do this

[Newgirl]

Omg yes I feel exactly the same! No weed tho just drink, going to cut down then doesn’t the on edge feeling but now noticing the control the digs the actions just remember that you too see all them so you are moving forward, I am desperate to get out and he often starts arguments and says we are over my response ‘good’ but next day he says we need to discuss it then it never happens I think he knows I’m done my focus is getting debts gone so I’m in a better situation as I have older kids so won’t get much help. I’d rather be skint and safe than stay here with him. It’s got to happen you just need to have faith I’ve also been here so long and feel so deflated that it hasn’t happened yet but it will when it’s right for us! Someone pointed out I’m grey rocking and after research yes I am as I cannot be bothered to engage with his games anymore! I’m done I’ve switched off and just waiting now I am not scared I am ready I just need to find a way out. I know it will be easier if he says it but I also kind of know he may not even though it’s clear he is also not happy as he wants intimacy and I’m not giving that

[Newgirl]

You are so right there!

[Newgirl]

100 percent lovely you have done so well to leave with 3 kids and it must be hard. It’s easier to stay I know that but I don’t want too. Keep doing one day at a time and you will soon feel better. Well done it’s a massive step done

[Newgirl]

Thank you lovely I never knew that!!

[Newgirl]

Sorry had so much going on health wise I think you have hit the nail on the head I am scared I don’t have anyone to lean on but if I can do it in a way he has no choice I can stay in daughters room till I sort out deposit etc I think not having that doesn’t help

[Newgirl]

Thank you and well done I’m so proud of you for managing to break it x trust me I’m ready I don’t want to put up with it I just can’t seem to say the words to him I can to others easily but to him I fall silent I keep saying I’m building strength and I honestly think I am x but yes it’s hard and no excuses for him what so ever he has his issues which I’ve tried to help but you can’t help someone who doesn’t realise they need it x my heart is ready my head is ready it’s purely the doing it now x

[Newgirl]

I thought it was just me and couldn’t understand why I can’t do it even tho I want it so bad. I feel for you all as it’s so hard x I’ve managed to open up to family over the last year some have been amazing some don’t understand and constantly ask why I haven’t done it yet which just makes me feel low! X he tends at the moment to do parting shots as he goes up to bed then the next day is waiting to see if I’m going to get the silent treatment or normal him. I feel as if I’m waiting for him to bring it up which I know is bad but I also have hope that I will get to the point that I just say it! Thank you to each and every one of you as your words help me so much to realise this is ok and it doesn’t mean I’m weak and failing. Xxx

[Newgirl]

Oh honey bless you xx I am ready but I just can’t find the words or bring it up x I don’t know why as this is what I want x

[Newgirl]

Thank you sorry I struggled to get in here for a while x it’s just constant isn’t it and it feels like your head is a mess
My head is made up I just need to do it now

[Newgirl]

Never feel ashamed lovely we are all here for you x yes it is mental abuse also as it is belittling you x how are you meant to know if it’s the wrong way or not x to be honest it won’t matter what way you say it it will be wrong x x x this site has taught me so much and things that I didn’t think was it is x I also feel trapped and it’s horrendous isn’t it x I tend to keep as quiet as I can now which is not me at all but I can’t deal with it x

[Newgirl]

What a fantastic idea thank you I shall certainly give that a try as it really might help and it won’t do any harm thank you ❤️

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