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I have lost everything, I feel so lonley and sad I just dont want to live anymore. My life is worthless

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I still havent managed to get anywhere to live, I’m feeling very down and lonely today as my girls have gone to their Dads and I am stuck in my bedroom, I want to be pottering round a little bath, taking a nice bath or doing some cooking or gardening….but I cant do any of those things….I feel like my life is just wasted no matter how hard I try to get out

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Just wanted to say hope you are ok tonight, it’s hard but your remarkabley strong to get out and now it’s time to put yourself first.
He is a control freak and you deserve to be treated better.

Xx

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I didn’t get the house, obviously wasn’t meant to be, feel
Quite deflated today

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Thank you, I just need to know if I can have the house me and my girls have put our hopes on.

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Horrible mind games hun, this is exactly what he wants. You dont need a man that makes you feel sad and hurt. You are stronger than him and can rise above this and enjoy your life now. Give yourself time and use your support network to help you and support you, they will be there to listen and be the shoulder to cry on, not a man that has treated you badly. x

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Hi Teabag,
Please dont feel like your alone and look how far youve come! Its a horrible feeling, feeling so low and I totally understand how you feel, but your doing amazingly well, just rememeber little steps and dont expect to much of yourself. If Im having a bad day I have to take each hour as it comes.
Life does feel so unfair sometimes and just hardwork and lonely but it can get better for you.

xx

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Thank you for your advice, Im not feeling very well at all at the moment, he came in to my room (detail removed by moderator)  and started swearing at me in front of my daughter which literally made me break down in front of her. I am seeing my friend (detail removed by moderator) who has offered me and my girls a room so we can get out and think about our next steps rather than feel pressured, Im going to make an appointment at the doctors too as Im in pain Im sure its stressed but better check

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Thank you I really am just worrying about the whole thing, if I get this place (detail removed by moderator) then I know I can start again and me and my children can be happy. I need to know he’ll pay back everything he has bored so need to talk to a solicitor, everything comes down to money. The person that has ruined my life is getting away with it and keeping his house, I now have nothing again and a huge debt. I just can’t work out what I do wrong to keep being treated like this

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I don’t think because of my kids, I’m feeling dizzy now. I wanted to tell m dad today but he was busy, if I can just get the house on (detail removed by moderator) I will feel so much better I think

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Somhes just shown his true colours again, he text me asking me to do yet something else for him which I refused and basically why should I? He’s started me calling me names regarding the weight I’ve gained this year and told me he’s putting his house up for rent by (detail removed by moderator)…. so basically he’s kicking me out, I’m now angry stressed and upset, I’m starting to get cramps in my stomach and no motivation to do anything.

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Today I am so angry, I am angry I am loosing my home again and having to rebuild again because of a man, I am angry because I have given up on myself and being controlled again by a man. Hes speaking to me as though nothimg has happened which is making me even more stressed, I have had a terrible migrane today but still have had to go to work and look after my children. I have started looking for somewhere to live today but not hopeful as letting agaents are never keen on the single mother claiming housing benefit, even though I’m working and studying to try and make a better life for myself. I just dont know what I have done to be have this nightmare of a life, I’m not a horrible person….

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So after last night he spoke to me today and said if everything could just be finished he could get my money for me, so I did everything again tonight checking it was all ok, he came home and said it wasn’t a ripped it up again and I lost the plot and I’ve hit him, I’ve never touched him before but I was so frustrated and tired, I’m so upset now I can’t calm down and keep feeling sick and having trouble calming my breathing down, I can’t stop crying I just want to leave w

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Oh hun, I understand totally what your saying and I’m sorry to hear about your children, you know what they are going to say and you know it will hurt, but…. is it worth getting that horrible bit out the way, let them shout at you, blame you, then…. try to rebuild, tell them you regret what happened and understand then take little steps to
Rebuild? I know my eldest is angry and hates my ex so much she will never talk to him and gets cross when he kicks off, even my youngest who’s (detail removed by moderator) came down today and said if he being grumpy again as I was so sad… it’s not right 😞

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I told my friend on( detail removed by moderator) what had happened again, Ive also asked her to call the police if I send her a random text anytime, which I know she will do. The problem I have is it is his house not mine so I dont ahve a leg to stand on, I left my house that was perfect as I was promised a better life and less struggles…. how stupid I was..the children are not his which makes it worse in a way as he doesnt care less about them or me it seems. I wish I had a tick list or a fairy god mother telling me what I can do just to give my girls the life they deserve.

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Thank you, I did ring woman’s aid on Friday, I don’t feel any better or still know what to do, no offence to the lady I spoke to but I’m still in the same position, and I know maybe the way I describe it doesn’t sound as bad or because I said i wasn’t scared, I don’t know as the lady was laughing but honestly today I am frustrated and so stressed, I can’t keep
Putting on the brave face. He will only breakmthings when I’m not in view and will only text nasty things not say they. My friend thinks he has a personality disorder but I still can’t live with it or use it as an excuse.

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Thank you for your help, I just feel like I will loose everything again because of him, I hate what hes doing and just want to scream to his friends to see what its doing to me. Im desperate to provide a good life for my children but also so scared of loosing everything and them not having what they need and want, 🙁 I will call tomorrow and see what and if I can do anything

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I think the worst part is, today he has calmed down and wants to talk… making excuses under the sun for his condition, my issue with that is I suffer from depression and anxiety I dont blame anyone for it, its my problem and I go to the doctors and take tablets to help it, so I get angry when he blames a situation, other people, what hes eaten. Today its as though, hes forgotten the things he said, like it didnt happen and he never thought any of those things. But I know and have my defences up but I feel very stressed and snappy today, which he thinks is funny….

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Hi,
I have two children of my own… the problem is I left my ex husband who was very controlling and emotionally abusive, it was so hard and I neer thought I’d be going through it all again, I have failed my children. I currently have an injury thanks to him (not intentional) making it impossible for me to drive or even get round the house. I have kept all the messages and photos and just by coming into thehouse they can see whats happened.
Im currently looking into what I have to do to get a place to live. I just feel that if I leave I will loose everything I have put in again like I did last time. I have one friend that I speak to but she just finds it funny now as we refer to his actions like a spoilt child but to be honest I’m at my rock bottom with everything.

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I’m in a similar situation, I sleep in the spare room, I do my own thing but still get nasty texts even though I keep right out of his way. I cant see a way out. Do you have no contact with each other? Im so lost how to live in the same house scared of what will happen next.
I love how positive you are and so pleased you are feeling freedom x

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Thank you so much, seems like the light of the tunnel is till a long way off yet

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