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Thank you for your reply but I don’t think I have cause to phone the police.
If he comes again I will clarify he is not welcome and has had ample opportunity to collect any items 2 months ago!
Its more that I just want to get on with my life . Feel really on edge and emotional again.
I know he’s bad for me, seeing him just delights that awful ache for his ‘ love’
It’s all like a horrible nightmare and I want to leave it behind me.

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Hi Sunshine,
Yes it’s a sad old business and one I wish I could get over ASAP lol.
I have gone full no contact but if he turns up it makes it hard! I just went Grey Rock when he turned up so he didn’t get any fuel from me.
I won’t be treated like some cheap tart… he can p*** off, I’m stronger now, have grown boundaries and I’m not his puppet anymore.
Still bloody hurts as those doubts creep in about him and was he really that bad? Yes yes yes he was.
Keep strong Sunshine xxx

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Omg! You are not a bad mum! You are a woman who is abused and trying to survive … it’s hard to find any time to do anything but breathe.
I truly hope you have some support, or have support from the helpline. You are a wonderful person … please don’t forget that you are worthy of so much more . Big hugs lovely lady xxxx

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Hi again,
The first time he was married so it was easier to end it, the second time he split with wife and love bombed me and we got engaged.  months later he discarded me when I protested against his behaviour. I had no choice, I didn’t know he was a narcissist or that I was abused. Thought I was a crazy needy bitch! I don’t know what’s worse tbh, I was suicidal. Worst pain ever….
I’m slowly recovering ( detail removed by moderator) but today he turned up(detail removed by moderator)!!!!! I sent him on his way but I am hurting still .. I just want it all to be a nightmare and wake up and find the lovely guy I thought I had. I still struggle with that concept.
I don’t think there’s an easy path, we have to face our pain, deal with it and move on.
It’s a lesson in learning about our inner wounds .
I send you lots of love , please pm me if you need a chat x

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Hi again,
Lovely to hear from you but sad to hear you have to put up with so much crap.
I’m holding out for a much better year and Christmas now he’s gone. I hope you find your freedom too.
We are strong women who have been manipulated and abused to feed their weak and damaged souls. We can rise again and love and live ….

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I’ve tried blocking emails but it goes to spam… and I end up checking! Everything else blocked. I don’t cyberstalk.
Just I don’t believe anything from him anymore, I would never ever trust him again.
Just eating me that he trying to ( or giving the impression) that he’s with her.

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Thanks Kip, just can’t believe it. Lucky I just got an invite to an interview for a job I really want so I was feeling in good spirits.

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I hope you are feeling stronger today. I totally understand how you feel but it is gradually getting better with no contact. It’s all addiction and they are our heroin.

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You are not alone! I know how you feel ladies… I just want to switch my mind off. He’s there in my thoughts all day and night, and the constant ache in my heart … the loss… so glad when these holidays are over. I feel so tired and alone.
I guess we need to follow KIPs advice and take it one baby step at a time.

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I’m sorry you are having such a bad day, he sounds a complete (detail removed by Moderator)!
I’m sure we are all asking why we picked such men… perhaps a better question is why were we so unlucky to be chosen by such creatures?
If we could only go back in time…. I’m not being very helpful am I lol.
I hope you stay safe this evening xxx

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I hope you are with someone supportive, agree with the other ladies… photos, police… harassment /assault charge.
Please, please be safe .

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Well said Freedomfighter!

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Cloudydays… you describe my feelings exactly. What have we done to deserve such mental torture? Just want to love and be loved, to be in a mutually caring relationship.
It’s awful when you see how they smile and joke with other people, and it confuses the hell out of you. Don’t know About you but I resent that he is on my mind 24/7 when I bet he hasn’t even thought of me.
Aaahhhhh get out of my Head!!!!

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Please listen to Kip. Contact WA and police. Think of your baby growing up believing abuse is normal, I know it’s hard to leave and hard being alone but you both deserve love, peace and respect . Big hugs

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Oh cloudy days my heart goes out to you. It’s like they start an argument however you try to avoid it so they can walk out. Leaving you confused and devastated. I used to hold my frustrations/ doubts in but of course that causes anxiety, depression and I’d spend days working out the best way to air my concerns. Ended up thinking I had communication problems.I feel weak and pathetic.

Has he returned yet? I hope you are ok

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